psxguy85
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Hi, I just had to talk about this because I can't hold it in any longer. I've had a dad stricken with prostate cancer since 1994, when my younger brother was born. He was able to deal with it and was supposedly rid of it by 1998, where he was almost healthy, but the radiation and the treatment was so damaging that the doctors gave him 5 years to live from 1994.
It is now the year 2004, and I still have not accepted the fact that he might die soon. My mom has long accepted this and has told me that she went many nights after my brother was born, crying in her sleep about my dad.
Another episode of this ordeal came during last winter, when my dad was admitted into the hospital because he was urinating blood and had internal bleeding because of the remission of the cancer. The doctors have since then given him 5-6 months to live, and it has been 5 months. He is currently in 'home hospice care' and we have a hospital bed at home so that he might be able to pass away peacefully in his sleep.
Here is a picture of my elderly dad and mom all the way in December. By the looks of it, right now he is physically 60% at most, of what he was in December.
His body has become very thin and frail, and I can easily pick him up from his bed if I have to bring him to lunch or stuff like that. For the past few days I've been very sad, and just sitting with my dad watching his favorite team, the Lakers makes me tear up and I have to go and do something else before I start sobbing. I don't know, its just hard watching my good old dad sitting there in a wheelchair, seemingly frail and helpless. He is still very sharp, but his physical condition is really terrible.
Anyway, I'm glad I got that out, and I will post updates in this thread if something happens.
It is now the year 2004, and I still have not accepted the fact that he might die soon. My mom has long accepted this and has told me that she went many nights after my brother was born, crying in her sleep about my dad.
Another episode of this ordeal came during last winter, when my dad was admitted into the hospital because he was urinating blood and had internal bleeding because of the remission of the cancer. The doctors have since then given him 5-6 months to live, and it has been 5 months. He is currently in 'home hospice care' and we have a hospital bed at home so that he might be able to pass away peacefully in his sleep.
Here is a picture of my elderly dad and mom all the way in December. By the looks of it, right now he is physically 60% at most, of what he was in December.
His body has become very thin and frail, and I can easily pick him up from his bed if I have to bring him to lunch or stuff like that. For the past few days I've been very sad, and just sitting with my dad watching his favorite team, the Lakers makes me tear up and I have to go and do something else before I start sobbing. I don't know, its just hard watching my good old dad sitting there in a wheelchair, seemingly frail and helpless. He is still very sharp, but his physical condition is really terrible.
Anyway, I'm glad I got that out, and I will post updates in this thread if something happens.