I have no problem soldering. The issue is, until I know the value of parts that I need, by doing the computer/book/paper/theory work, I can't exactly BUY anything to BUILD anything. Unless I buy all pots and variable capacitors for every component and just start turning knobs, I'm not going to be able to magically know what value part to get for element. In college, I had access to a storehouse of parts and testing equipment. Now that I'm out of college, I don't have that luxury. All I have now, is an iron, and a DMM. I don't cache of parts that I can just grab and throw together to test my ideas.
What people are wanting me to do is build someone else's proven design (which is basically has been reduced to anyway). What I have, exhaustively, stated, is that I'm ready for that next step. I can build a Lego set, been there done that. At what point does a person become magically deemed to be "ready" to make it to the harrowed halls of designing from scratch?
I would love to be able to start throwing things together now and trying stuff out. I would have long ago if I actually had a mass of parts cached up like most of the people here do. I wouldn't have had the patience NOT to, but since I don't have parts laying around at my disposal of all different sizes and values, I have to be patient and buy stuff that I think will work.
I went ambitious with this project, more than some would have liked me to go. That's fine, I have no problem with that. It is what it is and I am VERY close to being ready to actually making the jump of prep work into hands on. I do find it ironic that in the beginning, most of what I heard was that I should be building a plan to work from, now all I hear is to forget the plan and DO something. All in due time.
If it makes everyone feel better to think that I'm just some hard-headed youth that isn't willing to listen to the wisdom of his elders, then that's fine. At this point, I just wish the topic would actually move to something with more substance to it. The sooner I figure out those last unknown values, the sooner I get to fulfilling everyone's shared dream for me, hehehe.