Being at a university with a large party scene, I've been grappling with a conflict about myself. I'm somewhere between introvert and extrovert -- being a picky person, I really only derive energy and fun when hanging out with people who I really really like. I don't get much joy from being with people who don't meet my standards. I'm admittedly selfish in this fact, but that's just how I am. Otherwise, I like being alone. However, at university there's this party culture that makes me feel like I am missing out on things when I don't go. But when I do, it's just a bunch of drunk people standing around doing awkward things. I'm not very good at these situations -- I just can't really "let go" with strangers. I love a drink with friends and doing crazy wild stuff, but with a bunch of people I'm not familiar with? Not my thing. Not to mention the incessant amount of "hook up culture" at college, where for some reason people enjoy hooking up with random drunken strangers they've met for a one night stand. So many cultural things I just don't understand... makes me wonder if I just had a totally different upbringing than some of these partiers. Anyway, it's tough for me to decide if I don't like parties because I don't fit in and I'm not cool enough to enjoy them, or if it's just because parties aren't my thing. I don't want to be disdainful of people who like to get drunk and go wild and hook up just because I am seemingly unable to do so.
Moreover, it makes me wonder where I can meet people who are like me -- not really into the party scene, but also not totally introverted or quiet. I dunno where to look!