jgray91
Headphoneus Supremus
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I never really poured my feelings IRL. I don't know why; maybe as the eldest of 5 siblings, I have to look strong for the fam, since I'm the shining star. That's tremendous pressure in of itself, and to explain that to someone else face to face is... daunting. Sure I never really bare myself here since I designate this as the "being dumb as bricks" place, but on the Diary Thread... I've done way more emotional discussions there than IRL.
That's on the more personal side, and on the more casual side, even then I still have a few masks for RL compared to the internet. Heck, now that I know graph is reachable IRL, I don't know how I'll act in front of him.
Friends on the internet are still friends, despite what others may claim. They share rage, joy, sadness together, and maybe more so than IRL friends. While anonymity usually is portrayed in a bad light, in this case, I feel that anonymity serves a nebulous, positive purpose.
I actually don't really have any masks anymore. With my friends I act like I want to. It gives a tremendous sense of freedom, and I'm lucky to have a multitude of friends who actually like that.
That would be nice to do one day. The thing is, I do want people to understand me, but I'm not willing to expose myself. It's a rather odd thing...