I lost my son...

Dec 13, 2014 at 7:42 PM Post #19 of 48
Dec 14, 2014 at 9:25 PM Post #25 of 48
I have a 6 year old son that brings so much joy to my life and I can't imagine the profound pain that you must be going through. My sincerest sympathies for your loss.
 
Dec 16, 2014 at 10:52 AM Post #29 of 48
Dear Sir
I registered with a second ID just because I am ashamed to post on this thread with my primary ID here. 
Coming to the point, I feel similar pain, daily. Every single day, few tears roll down my eyes. I am in a constant state of sadness (depression maybe) & being lost into oblivion, Now it is true that I am weaker, emotionally hollow and very sensitive lonely person with high IQ in early thirtees. I have not received any parental love in my childhood (I have received enough care though & both are different). When I was 25, I found someone who gave me that affection. After few months, that was snatched away from me. That was the feeling which I can describe as: "finding the only thing you have been longing for your entire life for so many years, and then having it taken away after a small demo". I buy high end earphones because that is one thing which takes my sadness away temporarily. I am not sure what I am earning for because nothing seems to delight me. My professional downfall has already begun and I have become defensive.
Mike Johnson's post doesnt't make much sense to me (sorry for saying that) because somewhere down the line I stopped believing in god (or any higher power). I want to start believing again though. Also, the place where I live, so many people and children die daily because of terrorism, hunger, etc. So I have lost hope in everything in general which further fuels my sadness.
 
What I mean to say is I understand your pain and this will (hopfully) make you stronger. Time should heal you (which hasnt happened in my case strangely).
 
Sorry about my blabber but I needed to take it out of my mind too. Thanks & be strong.
 
Dec 16, 2014 at 11:33 AM Post #30 of 48
  Dear Sir
I registered with a second ID just because I am ashamed to post on this thread with my primary ID here. 
Coming to the point, I feel similar pain, daily. Every single day, few tears roll down my eyes. I am in a constant state of sadness (depression maybe) & being lost into oblivion, Now it is true that I am weaker, emotionally hollow and very sensitive lonely person with high IQ in early thirtees. I have not received any parental love in my childhood (I have received enough care though & both are different). When I was 25, I found someone who gave me that affection. After few months, that was snatched away from me. That was the feeling which I can describe as: "finding the only thing you have been longing for your entire life for so many years, and then having it taken away after a small demo". I buy high end earphones because that is one thing which takes my sadness away temporarily. I am not sure what I am earning for because nothing seems to delight me. My professional downfall has already begun and I have become defensive.
Mike Johnson's post doesnt't make much sense to me (sorry for saying that) because somewhere down the line I stopped believing in god (or any higher power). I want to start believing again though. Also, the place where I live, so many people and children die daily because of terrorism, hunger, etc. So I have lost hope in everything in general which further fuels my sadness.
 
What I mean to say is I understand your pain and this will (hopfully) make you stronger. Time should heal you (which hasnt happened in my case strangely).
 
Sorry about my blabber but I needed to take it out of my mind too. Thanks & be strong.

I feel the same for me it's been nearly four years since my son's death and it never gets any easier. I'm sorry if thats hard to hear but for me there is no coming to terms with it. I cry every day and i think this is completely normal. Perhaps talking about it here may not be the right place but you never know it might just be what some of us need. 
I have a loving family, mum and dad have been wonderful and i don't know what i'd do without them, although i have been divorced for nearly twenty years now my kids are still very close to me and we chat online nearly every day and visit every week. I have been an atheist since i was a very young child but if your religion helps you at times like this then good for you I say. 
 
Keep talking it can't do any harm :)
 

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