[ardgedee]

Yes death is a natural progression of the life cycle but while I'm here I intend to celebrate life and worry about my final moments when I get there. I only hope when those final moments come I'll be able to face it with dignity and my loved ones will all be around me to say goodbye.

  Nah. The logic in mysticism is upside down. You have to die in this life if you want to live. Hence you need to think about death constantly, as often as possible.

 
Coincidentally I've been listening to the chapters on the Stoics in the History of Philosophy podcast, and personal liberation (in a manner of speaking) is a dominant theme in their work. Epictetus in particular believed that unless you can accept death as inevitable and impending -- literally, unless you are willing to tell your child, "You will die today," you do not have sufficient self-discipline to be free, or to deserve dignity.
 
They were pretty hard core. "Stoic" came to mean what it does in English for a reason.
 
Our fate is to die, of course. To accept it calmly and with dignity is to be ready when it's about to happen. It's not the same thing as being suicidal: If anything, they considered that cheap and self-demeaning. The old saying, live each day as if you're going to die and you will live your life to its fullest (which might derive from Stoic writings, for whatever that's worth). Wrapping yourself in the trappings of doom until they affect you no more or less than any other form of decoration is a way to prepare for the inevitable, though it's up to you to decide whether you're going to be insufferable around others or not.
 
And the Gothy kids tended to be some of the better-adjusted people I knew when I was in college. Not really a scene I could get into, myself.
 

  Lil B is kind of similar in his inexplicable popularity, though in his case a big part of it is meme status. Some folks might like it because they see it as mocking hip hop, but I honestly don't think either artist is trying to mock hip hop. Or even certain elements within it. In Lil B's case, I like him a lot more than a Yung Lean because his personality is so effusive and he has such a positive outlook.

 
Yeah, I can't find anything in Lil B's stuff to form a strong opinion either way, but he found an angle for promoting himself that's downright entertaining whether or not the music's any good. And I'm OK with that.
 

  Honestly, the best boots I've ever owned, by far, has been Dr Martens.

 
Docs are some of the only footwear that I couldn't get off my feet fast enough when I tried 'em. They are antagonistic to my weirdly-shaped feet. Although they make a lot of other people happy. Fit is the ultimate YMMV.
 
I like Blundstones and have a few pairs but they're not for everybody and they're not particularly good snow boots. The quality is wildly inconsistent, too. A lot of cobblers will refuse to repair them. If I still lived up north I'd probably have a pair of Red Wings by now, but the conditions in the American South are never bad enough to justify it.
 
If Docs have worked for you this well for this long, stick with 'em.
 

  It's 5:50 am. Right now I'm parked in an empty lot, watching the blood moon eclipse with a friend.
Listening to the new Zola Jesus and Flying Lotus albums (w/ a bit of Caribou thrown in the mix).

 
Saw Caribou at Mergefest 25. A great show from a band I hadn't (knowingly) heard before. The latest couple albums are a little disappointing but I'll probably get the older stuff, since judging from YouTube those tracks do a better job of pushing my buttons.

 

[Coq de Combat]

I wish I could say take care buddies.
 
I need to get away. Can't stay here. I don't mean head-fi in general, or this thread in particular.

 

[mutabor]

Coq de Combat. I kind of know what you mean. Personal problems of late? And very serious ones. Good luck.
 
Today I watched new clip from Russian singer Linda. Haven't heard from her for several years. She had a big hit in 90-s "Vorona" ( A Crow).
 

 
Her new clip "Hang me up" 2014
 
 

 

[Coq de Combat]

Mutabor, yeah you could say that. I was dumped by my wife, lost my home, my hypomania is over (welcome depression), Hungover and I keep burning bridges at work while hypomanic. I feel like that bridge (to jump from) is my only option, but I did the mature thing for my kids: I went to the psych emergency.

I feel like, screw everything, right now.

 

[mutabor]

Mutabor, yeah you could say that. I was dumped by my wife, lost my home, my hypomania is over (welcome depression), Hungover and I keep burning bridges at work while hypomanic. I feel like that bridge (to jump from) is my only option, but I did the mature thing for my kids: I went to the psych emergency.

I feel like, screw everything, right now.

 
Yeah, part of that feeling ( except hypomania) is familiar to me. I mean when you feel that circumstances are against you. I fear that state but at the same time suffering has a very strong cleansing effect helping to concentrate on your inner self which doesn't happen in regular life. 

 

[ardgedee]

  I need to get away. Can't stay here. I don't mean head-fi in general, or this thread in particular.

 
I hope you can get the help you need and turn your life around for the better. Wait until some more peaceful time to contemplate the transformative powers of stress.

 

[compoopers]

Coq, I'm rooting for you and hope things get better soon. Keep working hard!

 

[jgray91]

Mutabor, yeah you could say that. I was dumped by my wife, lost my home, my hypomania is over (welcome depression), Hungover and I keep burning bridges at work while hypomanic. I feel like that bridge (to jump from) is my only option, but I did the mature thing for my kids: I went to the psych emergency.

I feel like, screw everything, right now.

I've never had the words to say to someone depressed other than the generic "stay strong, you can do make it through" but it's always as sincere as my heart can be every time I say it. Some times I said it half for me too.

I can, and will never be able to feel what you feel, but I sincerely wish you all the best to carry on as happy and positive as you can.

EDIT: umm.... ignore my avatar please...............

 

[Coq de Combat]

Thanks guys, today I took a decision: that high bridge with loads of drugs in my system, or keep struggling.

I will keep struggling.

It sucks, but when I think about it, I don't know what life will bring me in the future and that's a good thing. How much worse can it get? I'm sure it probably only gets better from now on. With some effort I can probably get my life back on track. Objectively, I have such a great position to make it happen. Would be a shame to bury it six feet under. Besides, those two wonderful parasites I put to this earth love and need me.

So, I'll keep fighting.

...in celibacy LOL. Cats are way better than the women I've been with. LOL

 

[DigitalFreak]

Get a pet fish. I found tropical fish incredibly relaxing when stressed.

 

[DigitalFreak]

That first Russian video, the imagery, looks like a goths dream come true. Attractive woman by the way

 

[mutabor]

Russian popular singer Elvira-T released an English language song. 
 

 

[jgray91]

I read that as "Trap and Troll" lol.

 

[MuppetFace]

Get a pet fish. I found tropical fish incredibly relaxing when stressed.

 
They're relaxing until you have to clean their environment.

 

[Mimouille]

They're relaxing until you have to clean their environment.

And until you realise the uselessness of their existence and make a parallel with your own.