Originally Posted by gopanthersgo1
Currawong, I had to convince another guy not to kill himself and showed my ex why not to cut herself. Most the people I know talk to me about suicide because I actually know a good bit about this stuff, and she's not attention seeking, honestly she wants everyone to forget about her and both kids only told me. :/ I called the suicide hotline on one kid that was about to kill himself, but they hung up thinking I was prank calling.
I didn't sleep convincing this guy not to kill himself and telling his crush to talk to him and stuff. :/ I got so many late grades that day.
Ouch, I'm sorry to hear that. I hope it worked out for the best for them. Still nice to see this level of depth on Head Fi,
It's a shame the hot line hung up on you >.>
Did I Post this story yet btw?
have a friend, we've known each other for about 7 years. I've ALWAYS liked her and I think she's ALWAYS know that much, I was kinda of direct when I was younger and naive [er]
Still that said over the past 7 years... she's I guess been flipping on me. I get 6 months of being her friend, and when it peaks [we have just a great day, laugh smile, joke, share, exchange ect... all the things friends should do] after that great day [and it has to be like EPIC and it usually is like an entire day of just... enjoying each other [not sexually or exclusively] she just stops speaking to me for like 6 months :/
So for YEARS it's been back and forth, and ofc as young as I was I fell very much in love with her, for those I guess expected happy times, I genuienly just enjoy being with and around her, talking, playing tennis, going to concerts [all things we did in a larger group but still... we had our own thing going] eating at resturants ect... so with all of those happy times, it's always kind of out weighed the sad times. But ofc I as 13 when I met her, and she was about 19... so the age differance seems to have been a hinderance
But I think it's more of... her own self doubt. She's not a super positive person, she's rather strange but seems to not always have the most confidence in her self [dates ass holes, then realizes there ass holes and dumps them] so she has pride in her self and standards, but I think... with me espically she was too afraid of being judged to just be my friend. In those off times she was... polite. And ofc an "ON AGAIN' was random. I'd usually have a nice day, shoot her an email and she'd respond. I'd usually send emails about once every two months and literally just wait for her to get back to me, and that was the start of the Up times. And those emails would get to about 7 exchanges, over the course of a few months... then as I mentioned... she'd stop talking to me again... very systematically. Like maybe she felt guilty for enjoying my company
And she's flirted with me before, and mind you she's not too flirty a girl. Not to mention she's ALWAYS eating of my hands when she's drunk [that was fun for a 15 year old xD her and my mutual friends used get together and do dinner, spades and some wine]
But still, 7 years of that has really messed me up :/ I'm pretty sure I've not gotten over her, and for better or worse she's as single as always. And to make matters worse, I emailed her about 2 months ago and she got back to me 2 weeks later [in the past it's usually been days, if it's longer than 3 days it's not happening]
So I'm just wondering... why she's always been... dragging me along ALL these years... she's like clock work. But she moved away about a year ago, the same time I moved out of my Parents house as well... so since then we don't speak much sadly... still I might go visit her next week. I've got a day off and I need to actually take care of some business where she works
we'll see how it goes, but she's like two people. One person is... just that friend you just chill with! Your open, you don't care if you say somethign assine, as both people are on the same page. And the other person treats me like a stranger
and ofc poor old me can't get over her :/ [I sent u her picture, the Red Head with small lips a big nose and green eyes]
and OFC like a moron, I've still got her picture on my PC and I had the nerve to send it to you... I suppose I sort of feed my own addiction don't I