I have been thinking a lot about whether to publish this question on this forum, as I don't want to annoy anybody on this forum.......
so please forgive me if you are annoyed by my behaviour.
There is a phenomena which i notice with myself:
A feeling of deep melancholy and self reflection, which makes me sad and depressed.
But the sad depression, comes along with happiness and a sort of "relief" (which can not really be described as such). Those moments almost move me to tears, it is unbelievably deep and intense. It reminds me of a perfect world, a surreal fantasy-world / the imperfection of this world and the suffering we all encounter every day (even if we don't want to admit). Fleeing from the worlds problems....a longing for something I can not really grasp. All problems are replaced my this sensation.
Hope...., infinite hope.
As I said, it is difficult to describe.....
This feeling often from listening to a hand-full of songs.
In my case:
Eminem - Beautiful (Relapse)
Leona Lewis - My Hands (Echo/Final Fantasy 13 theme song) - in combination with the FF13 trailer or the FF13 end-scene, the feeling becomes even stronger. (I have not played the game.)
I hope I could give you a very basic idea of that sensation I encounter, especially when I am listening to those songs.
Thank you for reading, I would appreciate some opinions.
Have a nice day.
P.S.: The videos: