I've... been having headaches all day today.
I can't stop looking at them...all day long I've been casting sidelong glances at them.
And they just sit there. Sit so coldly... so lifelessly.
It's something I've come to love and now, the memories are all rushing back to me:
The months of waiting and despairing as the trickle of funds came in slowly...
Being unable to settle my frantic heartbeat as I finally pulled the metaphorical trigger...
Of first hearing of it's arrival over the phone from a relative; of being overwhelmed with emotions indescribable then as they are still now.
And of course, when sitting down for the first time, almost dropping them from the furious trembling of my hands! Hahaha my god, what a nervous wreck I was!
Finally though - pure bliss -
I was content for two short years. My ears stopped straining for essence; it had finally found what I had longed for from the days I used to play the piano.
As if it was that piece of soul I had long ago left behind upon the piano bench, and miraculously I had picked it up, almost as if it was just... sitting there, merely waiting for me to come by and welcome it home once again. All I had to do, like back then, was to sit down and let everything fade to white.
And now...everything seems over. Dead, cold, and distant. I woke this morning to a chill uncharacteristic of the sunny weather just outside the window. And by just a little, it feels like that piece of me is slipping away again.
I know it's a silly thing to get attached to these things, not only because everything eventually goes away, but also because you can't keep on killing yourself like this, whether it's mentally or physically.
But I just want to say that for a short while I really, really loved these headphones. I don't feel like upgrading anymore at this moment. I know I can't send it in for repairs in my current situation. But, for a while I think I'm just going to put them away. Just until I've gotten over it. Then... maybe then I'll...
Sorry this was just way too long. But it's going to be a while, so I just wanted to say farewell to these beautiful phones of mine. And if you've read this far and understand what I'm going through...Thank you.