First of all, welcome back Gorgon. Where have you been?
In regards to smoking, the end of Decemeber will mark one year without for me. Of course I realise that NOBODY should smoke. It's dirty, stinks and wraps you in an iron clad addiction. But I swear, after a year, I'm STILL cranky as hell. I know I do a hell of a lot more yelling at work than I used to do. I sure hope this will pass, but I'm honestly thinking about getting on some kind of tranquilizer to mellow out! But would I go back to smoking at this point? No ****ing way. It's too much work to quit and too deadly to start again. Gorgon, stay off the freakin weeds. Especially if you've only been smoking a few years. Me, I smoked for 24 years before I quit this year. Who even knows if it's not too late and I've already planted the cancer seed to strongly. So stay off them. Aiotron's comment about trying to quit was very interesting. QUOTE: "The #1 thing to remember is that even if you relapse once after quiting for months the urge will be back at 80% strength... If you relapse within a week of that relapse the urge will be almost full power again." I don't know where he got his figures, but EMOTIONALLY that sound about right. A few months ago, I got drunk at a party a smoked about five cigarettes (man, that's nothing. I used to do that every hour). I'll tell you, all I could think was "CIGARETTE Mmmmmm...." for a ****ing week afterwards! What a stranglehold nicotine lays on you. And I know if I would have broke down that week, I would have been right back on them. Very scary.
