Originally Posted by ricksome
I do not know if this post belongs here but....I was in denial of being depressed and then I became suicidal. In Maryland there is a law that a Doctor can involuntarily commit you to a Mental Institution. I was told by a Doctor that I should voluntarily check myself in or he would have me put in a straight jacket and have me checked in. I went in on my own and stayed for 4 days and 3 nights. If you are suffering from depression, please get help. Depression is a mental disesase. People that have it (that's me) have a chemical inbalance in their brain. Just my 2 cents
Now this is something that a person does not ask for,doing anything to lean towards, or anything unlike Drugs and alcohol. this is a very serious problem but whats worse is the people who never had it just don't understand what it really is or does to you. no cure, no reasoning, and whats worse is even if the person that suffers from it knows and understands it they can never ever stop it..it comes and goes almost like if it had its own choice to..
also unlike drugs and and alcohol there is no Rehabs or health centers to help, sure there are pills and straight jackets but that only buys you time..
time to let you pass from the valley to the peak..
to anyone who has not suffered from this the best way to describe it as..
you know how you have a voice inside your head telling you what is right what is left, what is rite and what is wrong, you know your conscience?
well imagine if you conscience and everything you ever learned in life tells you its perfectly fine to blow your brains out..even if you say no its still justifying the end of your life..and as time goes on and the more and more it comes and goes..well it gets stronger and stronger..remember its your brain working to kill you..at least that's how I would describe it.
there's a good reason why I never touched a loaded gun, the second I do will be the last second of my life..not that i am suffering now from it or anything close but the voice is always in back of the head and justifying the end..
it can come up that quick and fast, the only help is to buy yourself time and no react on thought rite there and then. think you'll do it next week instead of now, hopefully by then the thought will pass and you'll be back to what some consider normal.
i think there are two types of depression though, emotional and chemical.
emotional can be had by a very very very good psychologist to help you understand why the thoughts are in your head, for example if your father called you a p.o.s. everyday of your life maybe the good psychologist can help you by asking does the voice that says its OK sound like your fathers. but regardless of the understanding and maybe even accepting of the emotional side you still will never beat it..its always there..
chemical is an unbalance of something a normal body needs and for what ever reason is not getting (for example Serotonin levels). pills help somewhat if they increase your bodies manufacturing of the chemical your not getting enough of. but regardless on how many pills you pop they can not cure the brain from itself..they more or less just even you out and buy some time..
either way your stuck with it for ever..
I am not writing this as an expert or even to possibly help someone who thinks they have it, instead I write this for people who don't..
cause your the people that might be able to see signs in someone else around you..just please what you do just buy them time..anyway possible.