This place is like crack for drugaddicts. You know you can't make yur own (at least some of us can't) and you try to score something cheaper and maybe stay with it. But then someone shows you a different flavor, unatainable anywhere else and, no matter if you have money or not, you try to score some of that. And then you realize you are hooked. You can try and be clean for a while, but eventually it will get you.